On Aspiring to be a Hanson Brother

So it's been a while since I've posted. Whoops!

Declan has ANOTHER ear infection, I think. This will be his third one in five weeks. I'm starting to worry that he'll need to have tubes in his ears. He doesn't seem bothered by the ear infections, but hearing him hack like an 80-year-old life-long smoker is getting old, despite how cute his smile is after he's done. It's like he's so proud of himself for keeping his lungs in his chest.

The next neat thing he's starting doing: babbling! He's started saying, "Mmm ba ba ba ba" and it's so ridiculously cute that I can't stand it. No, seriously... I really can't. The last time he did it, I started laughing and choked on my food. Guess what? Cuteness IS deadly.

The best part about his babbling is it makes him sound like a Hanson brother. "Mmm ba ba ba"... it's like a throwback to the '90's. I'm waiting for the, "Bye bye bye" and my boy band life will be complete!

Mother's Day was awesome. Jordan got me a silver locket that says, "Declan and Mom" on it, and inside is a picture of Declan and I. It's beautiful! We went mini-golfing too, and... for future reference: strollers on a mini-golf course are rough and I recommend it only for professional stroller users. If you are a novice stroller user-- STAY AWAY! I'm slightly better than a novice and maneuvering around tiny lighthouses, rocks, and sand pits is a challenge.

Off to watch Grey's Anatomy... if Derek and Meredith don't get married, I quit the show.





This time, I mean it.

The Debate Continues

So Declan has an ear infection. Again. This is his second one and he's only 5 1/2 months old. I'm starting to think that giving up breastfeeding may have been one of the worst decisions for his health. He's so susceptible to them now, between that and going to daycare. They don't seem to bother him at all (he's still so happy-go-lucky) but it really bothers me.

When I went back to work my milk supply decreased drastically. I was getting about 6 ounces a DAY and that was pumping 3 times a day, for 15-20 minutes. I just couldn't keep up with his needs. He's a big kid (in the 75%) and needs a lot of milk. I decided to stop breastfeeding and give him formula. He's doing very well on it, gaining weight, but it's more of a nagging thing in the back of my mind that makes me think, "Is this really what is best?" It's drilled into women from the moment of conception that the breast is best. We all know that.

I guess I can't help but feel a little guilty. If I was able to be a stay at home mom, he'd still be breastfeeding and might not have an ear infection. He still could have an ear infection despite the fact that I'd be breastfeeding. I guess I'll never know.

In 10 years he'll be drinking coke, munching on chips, and playing video games with friends. In 10 years, I doubt breast vs. formula will really matter.